One Flower in a Bunch of Fields

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Sun, 17 Feb 2013 20:00:17 -0500

Been Awhile

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 19:43:17 -0500

Hello, I’ve been avoiding this place for over a year now. I went through a very rough patch that I did not want to focus on my feelings, or tell my feelings for that matter. I’ve learned a lot in the past year. A lot was about myself, and the life ahead. I used to focus on working to distract myself from everything; working 80 hours a week, sleeping, eating and driving was all I did. I thought it was important to pay off my loans, to make money, save money, but this is not what life is about. Yes, I will have to pay my loans, but I can take as long as I need to. Friends, family, and I are my new focus. I’m learning to care for myself again; yes, I’m overweight but it is okay. It is more important to fix your insides before your outside. I’ll get there; where ever there is. I’m glad to be back.

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Sat, 04 Feb 2012 11:28:57 -0500

Update

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 11:27:56 -0500

Flowers will be paid for by my dad’s girlfriend, Mary.

Cake will be made by Joe’s mom for free. Just need to buy cake topper.

Unsure still, but being married by Jay’s aunt, for free.

Photography will be done by Joe’s sister Katt also for free.

Joe’s mom also will help with the cooking, therefore there will be enough people to not need to hire someone.

I like to know everything is going to be good. =]

Good News

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 18:36:03 -0500

I talked to my store supervisor about hours and working at two stores, he said he was going to figure out if I would be able to do that. Also I am becoming a crew trainer, which get paid 7.75 a hour… I know it is only .35 more a hour but when you work 5 days a week for 8 hours… 14 dollars extra a week. I know I am crazy but 14 dollars can help.

I also found out that my seasonal job at the ice cream store may have more shifts for me after all. We will see how things decide to go.

So… that’s my good news.

Wedding

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 09:38:55 -0500

I am planning my own wedding, and even though it may be over a year away I want to make sure I get started now. I need to figure everything out beforehand, before we make a for sure date. Money is the only issue… So everything focuses on that.

Cake is free… and the justice of peace… but besides that cost is very rough… good thing I know and like cheaper ways around it.

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Thu, 05 Jan 2012 20:27:09 -0500

We work our butts off to get nowhere.

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 19:30:21 -0500

I work a full time job getting paid only 7.40 a hour.

I went to school for 2.5 years and only been recognized as going for 1.5.

I am 30,000 dollars in debt and I am only twenty years old.

I’ve lost my animals either to a no kill shelter, death, or in foster care.

I cannot afford to pay my own car insurance or get my car registered in my name, therefore I live with my gramp who pays for it because I live here.

I owe 335 dollars every first of the month, for bills.

I pretend I am independent because I am paying for my phone, school, food and gas all on my own, but since I have to live with my family I don’t believe I am.

There are millions of reasons I shouldn’t be getting married, or adopting a child, or even having pets, but I work my butt off so I can keep saving money so one day I will be debt free in my own house with my own children and own animals and be truly independent.

he4ther-fe4ther: thoughtsoftenunsaid:

Thu, 29 Dec 2011 19:19:16 -0500

he4ther-fe4ther:

thoughtsoftenunsaid:

I need to kill facebook.

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 20:27:56 -0500

"Everyone already thinks we are engaged, people keep asking when the wedding is, I just tell them we..."

Sat, 17 Dec 2011 10:15:42 -0500

““Everyone already thinks we are engaged, people keep asking when the wedding is, I just tell them we haven’t decided on a date yet.””

- <3

I wish...

Sat, 17 Dec 2011 10:03:17 -0500

Even though most people don’t do it… I just feel like it is strange how rings work.

A girl wears a promise ring and an engagement ring, but a guy doesn’t wear a ring until he is married.

Why should the girl wear the ring? Girls would still think the guy is single unless his girlfriend is with him, or he actually talks to the girl and tells them he is taken.

I love when you realize you aren't the only one who doesn't like six-packs =]

Tue, 13 Dec 2011 18:49:37 -0500

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Sat, 10 Dec 2011 08:42:34 -0500

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Sat, 10 Dec 2011 08:42:16 -0500

Lately...

Sun, 20 Nov 2011 19:03:09 -0500

Everyday I have been thinking more and more about the life ahead, where I’m going to want to live, how I am going to raise a family, what kind of job I am going to be stable in, and how to not be in debt the rest of my life.

I can’t really say I want to spend the rest of my life in the same state. I know I am moving out of Rhode Island, but will the first state I move to be the last? I feel as it won’t be. Will I have enough money to move to a different one? I do not know.

I want to have a really big family. I want them to grow up healthy. I want them to grow up happy. Whether or not they have to share rooms by threes I do not know, but they will live the best life they can.

I want a job, a well paying job, but at the same time I rather work from home the most I can. I do not know what kind of job I would be able to have that lets me stay home with my children while still being paid a fair salary.

I have been going to school now for two and a half years. URI stays I’ve been going to school for 1 and 1/2 years. I am 30 thousand dollars in debt already from school and one of my loans I pay 200 a month to is only going down by about 50 a month due to interest, I have over 14 thousand debt in that loan alone.

I’ve been thinking really hard about continuing school. I know I need to finish school in order to get a really good job, and everyone is telling me that it will be worth it. I don’t think I can attend school for another 3 to 4 years. That would be another 30 thousand dollars. I will be paying school back for the rest of my life. Is it really worth it?

I want to do something so much better for myself. I want to do something with photography, or with design, or with business, and still be able to live my dream of writing books. I do not want a degree in something I won’t use.

I should just own my own art gallery, charge people a flat rate to have a show there then get 5-10% of the money they sell their artwork for. Or have my own portrait place where I would take pictures of people there or be rented for a special occasion. I would have to have money to start these business but that’s what I want to do. I do not need a degree to do any of this… I don’t.

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Tue, 08 Nov 2011 17:54:34 -0500

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Tue, 08 Nov 2011 17:50:26 -0500

Ten Months, or A Year.

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 17:50:11 -0500

You can pick, either way I know I am gonna be with you forever. <3

Truths About You Questions

Fri, 07 Oct 2011 18:00:11 -0400

So I decided to read some of what people answered yes or no to on this facebook “Truth About You” application just for fun.

I kind of feel people were actually reading the questions and answering haha

Therefore, I am going to answer some of the questions that were answered by them. Most of them make sense as truths about me, but others are just like guesses people have made.

-I have never smoked.

-I do not sing in the shower.

-I have never kissed a girl.

-I did not score over 1500 on the SATs.

-I have never given money to a homeless person.

-I do speed when I am driving.

-I do not party.

-I have never dressed up like a mascot and ran around.

-I have punched someone.

-I do not swear like a sailor.

-I do want kids someday.

-I could never eat 3 big macs at one time.

-I am a scrub.

-I am tone deaf.

-I have cheated on a test.

-I love click flicks.

-I have played beer pong.

-I am not religious.

-I do not find me to be cute, a good kisser, or funny.